The Divine Purpose of Fear

I was talking to my friend Lisa the other day and told her about a project I started out of fear. I have been known to be very judgemental of myself when creating from this space. She asked if I was continuing the project out of fear. I told her it had shifted to love. Her response to my self-judgment was to say to me that the fear had served its purpose then.


I had never looked at fear as serving a Divine Purpose before. On the contrary, it was always something I had to┬átranscend. Isn’t that the goal of becoming a spiritual being to no longer live in fear? After this conversation, I think not. The purpose of the spiritual seeker is to use all of our emotions and experiences for our highest good. It may take some time to reach that goal, but eventually we all do

Fear can be either destructive or constructive. Fear was designed to keep us safe, not to be used as a shaming device. How it changed over millennia, I know not. But if The One Creator created everything, doesn’t it make sense that fear is one of those Creations?

From this point forward, I will look to fear as one of the many emotions my soul uses to move me to a higher place consciously. 

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Becoming Real

I recently had a conversation with my Spirit Guide, Grandfather. This is what he said about loving ourselves.

Artwork by Katelyn Mariah

Della: What do we need to know today?

Grandfather: Cherish yourself above all others.

Della: That sounds selfish to me.

Grandfather: That is because you have been falsely taught.

Della: What do you mean?

Grandfather: Your culture/society has undermined your natural ability to love yourself. It is in loving yourself that you will find actualization. You will find your Self. 

When I looked up the word actualize, it means to make real. I immediately thought of the story of Pinocchio. Pinocchio is a puppet that longs to become a “real” boy. He goes on many misadventures before he finds himself. Pinocchio is our story. Before we can become actualized or real, we often make many mistakes. The quickest path to becoming “real” is, therefore, through self-love. 

When we love ourselves, we can discern the difference between generosity and giving ourselves away. Loving ourselves teaches us to set healthy boundaries and leads us to listen to our bodies instead of becoming ill before we hear.

When we love ourselves, we can love others in a healthy way.

Painting by Katelyn Mariah. You can find more of her fabulous artwork here.

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Surfing The Chaotic Waves

This came through my journaling practice this morning. I thought I would share.

I am moving more and more towards stillness these days. Freeing myself from the external noise of the happenings of the world. Freeing myself from the to-dos that want to fill my days. There is constant pressure to protect me from the chaos of the world, to fight the oncoming changes that are inevitable. I know I am ready as I can be for whatever is going to unfold.

There is always change coming. However, sometimes that change is more dramatic than others, and this time seems to be the case too.

I sense what’s coming will be slow and steady. And, maybe in 18 months, I will look behind me and say WTF just happened? How did I not notice that all of this was unfolding? Was I too busy, too paralyzed, or simply complicit in the collective denial to do anything about it?

I have to trust that my soul knows what it is doing. I am here during this critical juncture of our world for a purpose. It is either as a witness or as a rock to lean on. I will remain steadfast in my truth. I may not see the big picture yet, but I trust something beautiful will be built from the wreckage.

My mantra these days is everything that does not align with my soul’s mission must fall away, even if that is the world as we know it.

Deep Surrender

I have been in the process of Deep Surrender these past couple of weeks. Surrender is not something I do once, and then I’m done. I have to surrender over and over again. This yielding has been a lesson in patience with Self. I have a habit of holding on so tight. That gripping like my life depends on it has been a problem of mine most of my life. I’ve been grasping so long and hard that now there is numbness in my hands and feet (neuropathy). This pain began last year but seemed to dissipate with a diet change. However, now it is back, and I know that there is more than diet contributing to the pain.

Mental & Emotional Contributors

Why am I holding on for dear life, you ask? Because I am afraid. I think I came out of the womb in survival mode. My mother told me I would be stiff as a board whenever she tried to cuddle me. This fear led me to try and control every outcome, so I could feel safe. Even now, when I am truly safe, I still try to manage all the details of my life because this habit has existed as long as I can remember.

Pain As a Motivator

The first time I heard the phrase pain as a motivator, I was sitting in a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous. At that time, I understood the phrase’s meaning to be someone hitting bottom so hard they could no longer avoid their problems.

Well, I’ve hit my bottom, or it’s more like the two-by-four has hit me. Like an addict who goes out and relapses, I’ve had to learn the lesson of surrender repeatedly. But, this time, I’m listening, though my ears still ring from that wack alongside the head.

The Empowered Present

I’m letting go one moment and one breath at a time. So when I slip out of the present moment and into my busy mind, I pull myself back, breathe, and remember that surrender means freedom, not loss of Self.

I know that there is an opportunity here in this challenge to let go and allow Life to unfold. It is time I take back my power and live in the present moment. I give my power away whenever I step out of the present. As Louise Hay says, “The point of power is in the present moment.” And the Course In Miracles says, “In my defenselessness, my safety lies.” This means it is time to drop my armor, start trusting Life and live in the now. It is only in the present that I can live fully empowered.

Della offers weekly zoom yoga classes, workshops, intuitive readings, and wellness coaching. You can find out more about her services here.

Mindful Eating Tips

  1. Be fully present. When we are not fully present, we are disconnected from our bodies, and it is easy to overeat. Before you take your first bite, put your awareness into your feet. This will bring you into your body.
  2. Breathe. We are often in a hurry when we eat and end up gulping down our food. When we remember to breathe, we slow down and are more inclined to notice the nuance of flavors on our tongues.
  3. Appreciation. When we appreciate our food, we become one with the life-giving gift of the food we eat.

Della offers weekly zoom yoga classes, workshops, intuitive readings, and wellness coaching. You can find out more about her services here.

Is There A Difference Between Soul & Spirit?

While in conversation with my guides, I asked if there was a difference between Soul and spirit. The following is the message that came through.

You are not only a soul; you are spirit incarnate. Spirit and Soul are all part of the Infinite Oneness. To live in the experience of this dimension, you had to believe you were separate from your Soul. Spirit is what animates your body. Prana (Spirit) breathes life into your being. The more Spirit or Prana, the more life force, i.e., energy you have access to.

Spirit = Prana = Life Force

Ways to Experience More Life Force:

  • If your battery (physical body) has a low charge, you will feel fatigued. The best way to charge your battery is through the breath (prana). So when you are tired, breathe.
  • Another way to charge your battery is water. Water conducts energy. Drink lots of water! Bathe in it, swim in it, meditate by a body of water. It will recharge you.
  • Appreciation. When you are in a state of appreciation, your whole being is energized. Connect with Nature, and finding things to be grateful for will renew you.
  • Be present. Nothing drains your body as fast as dwelling in the past or the future. 

So then, what is the Soul? Find out the answer in part 2 of this conversation.

Della offers weekly zoom yoga classes, workshops, intuitive readings, and wellness coaching. You can find out more about her services here

Our Wild Nature

I’ve been contemplating the reality of Nature lately. The reason is that we recently had three dogs come into our yard and attack our chickens. We live on a road with one other house on it, and they have no dogs. So this was a completely random event. My husband and I had never seen these dogs before. At first, he thought it was a coyote because we often see those on our land. But then the other two dogs took chase as well.

Image by Sergio Vega

I was in the bathroom at the time, so I missed the chaos and the yelling from my husband. However, when I arrived on the scene, I saw feathers scattered all over the yard. My first thought was that all of our chickies had been destroyed. I immediately burst into tears at this thought and bawled for several minutes before pulling myself together.

I had been emotionally prepared for the day when we would lose a chicken to a coyote or a hawk. Ever since I started raising chickens two years ago, we would lose a chickie or two to these two predators. But, I was not ready for this random act of violence from a pack of domesticated dogs. Unfortunately, this is the reality of Nature. Just as it is beautiful, it is also tragic.

For many years Nature has been where I have taken my solace. It is where I go to be nurtured and made whole. Yet Nature is more than the trees and the flowers that I love so much. Nature is also death and destruction.

This experience had me questioning my belief system. I grew up Catholic and was taught there is only one god, and He was up in the sky somewhere judging my every thought and deed. When I entered Alcoholics Anonymous over 30 years ago, I was encouraged to choose a god of my understanding, and I chose Her. So, I immersed myself in the Goddess. I became a Wiccan. The natural world became my church, but only the pretty parts.

I knew the angry, terrible, and destructive part of Her nature existed, but I wouldn’t let it touch me because I did not want to see it. I wanted only the light instead of the dark. I had had enough darkness for one life.

Yet we cannot exist in the light without embracing the darkness. This encounter with the dogs brought this home to me unexpectedly. You could say it was my come to Jesus, or in this case, Goddess moment.

This experience has deepened my understanding of Nature. At first, I was angry that a domesticated animal would ravage our flock in this way. But once I remembered that today’s domestic dog originated from wolves, I remembered. These dogs were doing what came naturally to them. Not because they were bad dogs but because they remembered their wild nature.

I, too, have a wild nature. She lays hidden within the confines of my own domestication. She wants to bust her chains and howl at the moon. Every day those chains weaken. The saddest part of this story is the chains are of my own design. I crafted them very carefully to navigate the world we live in and to feel safe. What is safety anyways, if not an illusion?

I no longer claim to be a Wiccan, as my spirituality is more Universal these days. But Nature is still my solace. So I will honor the dark side of Her and the darkness within myself, for She and I are one. To deny that part of myself would be to deny Her.

Della offers weekly zoom yoga classes, workshops, intuitive readings, and wellness coaching. You can find out more about her services here.

scenic view of mountains during dawn

Divine Nourishment

scenic view of mountains during dawn
Photo by Simon Berger

Are you feeling nourished from the Divine? What does that even mean? 


to sustain with food or nutriment; supply with what is necessary for life, health, and growth.

to cherish, foster, keep alive, etc.

to strengthen, build up, or promote.

Many of us feel depleted these days as the effects of the last two years and current events continue to take their toll. We seek comfort, and those around us don’t have anything to give. So we look to other means for sustenance.  

Some of us seek nourishment outside ourselves. But unfortunately, drugs, sex, alcohol, shopping, technology, and other addictions take the place of Divine Connection, which separates us more than we were before.  

What if Divine Nourishment were as simple as watching the sunrise or the sun set? Maybe it is a long deep breath into the lungs. Or the laugh of a loved one. I am suggesting that the Divine is all around us all of the time. It’s up to us to pay attention. But, if it is that simple, why don’t we connect all of the time? That is where the true epidemic lies, outside of the present moment. We get caught up in our daily lives and forget that the Divine is within us, right here, right now.

How do we change that? I believe this is where a spiritual practice comes in. Like in meditation, we bring our awareness back to the present moment. For example, while washing the dishes, bring your attention to the feel of the water on your hands. While petting your cat, notice the texture of its fur against your skin. When eating an apple notice the sweetness on the tongue. The present moment is where we experience Divine Nourishment. Bring yourself back again and again. That is where the practice part comes in.

What nourishes you in these challenging times?

Della offers weekly zoom yoga classes, workshops, intuitive readings, and wellness coaching. You can find out more about her services here.

A Prayer for Physical Healing

What if becoming present were as simple as putting awareness in your feet? That is what my Spirit Guide, Grandfather suggests you do to experience both the present moment and to experience Presence. He also leaves us with a prayer for physical healing. If you felt the energy of this transmission please leave me a message in the comment line.

Della offers weekly zoom yoga classes, workshops, intuitive readings, and wellness coaching. You can find out more about her services here.