A recent conversation I had with my guides.
Me: How do I become present?
Me: Argh! I’m tired of that answer. You’ve been telling me that for years.
Guides: And we will keep telling you that as many times as you ask the question.
Me: So, I guess I need to ask how to stay present?
Guides: Ah, that is the question we’ve been waiting for. Our question back to you is why don’t you stay present.
Me: Because I have to get stuff done! If I’m not thinking about the next thing that needs to get done, I’ll forget to do it, and then I won’t get things done and then, and then. . .
Guides: What happens if you don’t get things done?
Me: Then I am a failure. Wow, I did not know that was in there.
Guides: See, a little dialog gets you where you need to be. You realize now that fear of failure keeps you from staying in your body and the present moment.
Is it true that you are a failure if you don’t get things done?
Me: No. It isn’t. But it feels scary. I feel a tightness in my chest when I even think about it. I define so much of my worth by how much I can accomplish in a day. So it bothers me when I have to slow down. I feel as if I am going to fail myself. I know that no one else has these expectations of me. This is something I put onto myself.
How can I shift this?
Guide: Trust. Trust that you will get what you need to get done. We know this feels scary but try it as an experiment. Take this moment, breathe and follow the Flow of Life. The Flow of Life has no other desire of you than to experience joy. If you follow the Flow of Life, everything gets done precisely when needed. No efforting required.
Me: That feels peaceful when I think of it this way. O.K. I’m going to give it a go. This feels huge.
My worth is not determined by how much I get done! My worth is not determined by how much I get done. I am safe. I am safe. I am safe.
I guess I didn’t realize there was a safety element in this. That may be a dialog for another day.
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